Wow, I did not know it's been so long since I stayed away from my bloggie. What can I say? I was kinda busy for the coming Christmas celebration. My birthday is just a few days away too. By the tone of my blog today you may find that I am not quite happy. Wait, actually, I AM NOT happy. I am seriously sensitive. A few days ago, my dad and I went to the PC fair. Found lots of great laptops which he was giving me signs that he would buy one for me. GOsh, I was so excited. I didn't mind if it was not the most expensive or the most stylish one. I just wanted one that functions well and smooth. When they asked me what I wanted for my birthday and Christmas gift, I said Laptop, for that was one of the things that I REALLY wanted these few months! Of course, my hopes were crushed today, this morning, when my mum said that since my sisters did not get laptop at my age it is clearly unfair that I should have one. Okay, that I did not see coming. Really Blew me away! I can feel that my tears are stuck and the anger is holding up in me. I am trying to calm down. Keep it cool. Playing tantrum will not save me from my misery. Whatever right???? If they were to ask me what I want as my gift this year, I do not think I have an answer as clearly... what I want will never reach me. Unless I said book. Every year I have been asking for story books as Christmas or birthday gift. This year, I finally changed my mind and I got rejected. Wow, it really hurts. If you are wondering why not ask for a phone which is second on my list, well, dad said that would be NEXT YEAR. laptop NEXT YEAR. HOw about a pet? NO! can't take care of it. What the FUCK! I give up! sorry for the vulgarity but I am just so pissed now!! *TAKING DEEEP LONG BREATH!* I can feel tears... why do I have to be so sensitive??? Aaaaahhhhhhh~!

NO point getting pissed? Siggh~~ How I LOOOOVEEEEE LIIIIFEEEE ...